All my life as far as I can remember I have sought for meaning. It is true that this is a universal hunger common to all humanity. But it seems the sacrifices I made on this quest were beyond the ordinary. After journeying through fundamentalist Christianity from the beginning and then breaking down with repeated relapses of religious Schizophrenia, I began to emerge in consciousness as I put all the pieces together in unraveling the mystery of life. This blog is a platform of the rendering of my explorations of consciousness which has tied all the loose ends of meaning in my journey.